The last post published on this page knew nothing of covid, it had 3 siblings, one niece, and was chronicling a guy on a pretty decent journey to improve his health.
Then 2020 happened, the world shuts down. I say my health can wait because we can't really go outside ANY DAMN WAY. So I trade my salads for whatever damn thing I want to eat, No more smoothies just whatever I felt like eating and just going with the flow. Then the end of the year happened, and Eikichi goes down. I don't know if I've really gotten over this because, how does the youngest go first. Me the former Nihilist, the guy who can't stand sunshine, and could darken a rainbow is still here and the funshine guy is gone. I am still kicking myself because, as an older sibling my last thoughts were being annoyed with him. Because I knew it was gonna be okay, I just knew it. Not one of us, we are tougher than that. Until we weren't, and devastation is an understatement. Okay, I got two nieces including one who's dad is no longer here and I gotta be strong for. So here we go, munchkins second birthday but no dad. And oddly enough she gains an aversion to the birthday song.
My nieces are little bundles of energy and joy. One of them loves to hug you, the other one judges you with harsh eyes that belie a lovely smile(That I rarely see, unless she is stealing my drink). So as the hug Mooches birthday approaches, my sister is in a tizzy, why because she wants my nieces birthday to be a big deal. She is who she is, she has her issues but hey how can I be mad she wants her nieces birthday to be a big thing. And then she doesn't make it. I wake up to the news that she passed in the night, and now there are two. Frank the Tank and the Lankness monster, who is probably tired of me telling him to wait his turn. Like I know survivors remorse is a thing, but MAN is it a heavy weight to carry. Oh yes I have done PLENTY of fun things since the last blog I ever published, hell since the last blog I ever wrote(It's in drafts on this blog). Truth of the matter is though, The pen has fallen silent, the music has kind of stopped. The entertainers are no longer on the stage, and while it may sound dramatic it is true. While we are all "cut ups" to be sure, Eikichi was the only one to actual be a part of theater/drama club and the Auntie was the one who did all the other performance type special activities. She actually took art courses, so yeah I think it is really safe to say that "the performers are no longer on stage." I don't know where I was going with this. I mean since I had done the work to fix the tags and stuff, I didn't feel like editing the last post I created(I need to edit it and WHEW do I not know what I was talking about) so I just did I hi, I'm here. I'm not back but I am alive. Let us see where the world takes me now. Oh and you can always check out my youtube or tik toks. I'll give you two guesses what's in the name ;)
