Thanksgiving

Let's see what do I have to be thankful for?  A day off, as usual these are few and far between. A vacation next month with my wife you really can't have too healthy a relationship with distance because sooner or later you will want to feel the arms of the one you love. That me and my siblings haven't killed each other for another year, we are all opinionated people and lets just say if you knew us you'd be just as surprised as I am.

I'm thankful for some of the interesting people I have met here online for good or ill. It's kinda funny folks would think I am of the monolithic variety because of my skin tone and my political affiliation. Thing is just because I think one thing does not mean I am unwilling to listen or even consider another approach, just don't expect me to join your movement if it's half cocked and only directed at in some way shape or for dumping on me as the constant bad guy. How stupid do you think I am, if there is a problem that I am working towards fixing and you have no solution you just want to complain at how I am addressing the problem, yeah thats not an idea thats backseat driving and guess what if you are unwilling or can't take the wheel then I reserve the right to decide the destination.

I'm thankful for being black in america, there are somethings that one obviously cannot understand unless you view it through the right lens. I see how easily people ignore the truth around them because for the most part it does not effect them, their ignorance costs them nothing and their denial causes them to be popular. Problem is you can't get anything done if all you ever do is deny that something needs to be done, if you constantly say where you are is the best that you can ever be. I may not know the whole story but I do know there are many more chapters to write and that I want to be a part of that writing and that editorial process.

I'm thankful for being a man, not that there is anything wrong with being a woman. Hell so many things right with being a woman, but I kind of like the fact that I can help define something that many feel is lacking or invisible in our world today. Oh we have plenty of folks out there acting like tall children but not many willing to stand up and do the hard part, and it ain always glamorous or gonna get face time with a camera. But how often do you look at the dirt and realize without it you wouldn't have any food? I mean in all honestly without the base one cannot have a building. The bottom of the food chain is actually more important then the top. Because without the little stuff to feed the food of the big stuff guess what disappears?

In a puzzle there is no unimportant piece, because if you do not have all the pieces the puzzle cannot be completed. Oh there will always be folks who don't like the puzzle you picked, or the picture once it's completed or even will say they could do it faster, but regardless if you don't have all the pieces the puzzle cannot be finished. So I enjoy being the unique piece that I am and I'm thankful for a chance to help complete the puzzle

A day of thanks and introspection

By the desktop it is officially thanksgiving, and I had a weird thought in my head on thanksgiving I'm gonna sit and think about where I am, what I've been up to and how things have either changed for the better, stagnated or gotten worse. I've added some widgets to my page so things are about to get interesting, because the blog is the only place I'm gonna cut down on the cursing, so if you're used to (and while I have had some read ain nobody subscribed as of yet so it's some but who knows how many) the rather laid back and pg-13 stylings of  my Blogspot blog understand twitter is about to take you through a whole new door.

I've seen a few movies lately, I bought star trek, I just watched notorious for the first time, so I have plenty of stuff to talk about, and tomorrow I will officially have time to do it., and I plan to make use of such time to blog, tweet, and release a few pent up items in my mind. I use blogging as my own personal therapy whether angry, concerned, sad or exhausted hitting these keys allows me to free up some space in my head and as of late I really haven't had much time to do that, so on a day that I do look out. I plan to blog bomb these spots just random postings out of no where.

Who knows maybe I'll get blog spot above 35 or 40.  As for mile stones hmm I'm not really that big on celebrating them, though I do plan to make a big deal out of my 10th wedding anniversary, I found a woman to put up with me for 10 years whew she has to be a saint because I damn sure ain no angel.

As goes my daily process life happens

What can I say some weeks I never stop working so that by the time I get back to the house I'm too tired to doo much but veg, and I haven't even gotten a good veg session in for quite some time. I think as best I can tell I either have the worlds worst cavity under the filling in my right rear molar or it just needs to come out right now.  few weeks ago I bit down on something no clue what it was, but since that day my right rear molar has been the enemy. I drink something sweet, it hurts like hell I wake up in the morning it hurts like hell. I make the mistake of biting down on something with it again it feels like it's trying to throb it's way out of my skull.

Now in a little under 2 weeks I am heading on a 3 holiday vacation to see my wife in atlanta, I say 3 holiday because I am heading there on the 9th, I will be there for our anniversary(personal holiday), my birthday(and thus christmas being a christmas eve baby), and then new years. I may do a review of the star trek DVD I bought it last week and have been watching the hell out of it, probably will go watch ninja assasin too(because that movie looks like the bomb, I'm a kung fu fan and that movie just screams you have to see this) tomorrow is thanks giving, while my wife isn't hear I guess it will be nice to have a day off with lots of food(even if the tooth traitor will probably not let me enjoy most of it).

Not a big shopaholic so black friday means nothing to me, at all still have to sell a few stocks so that I have some vacation money when I leave.  I sold a large chunk of ford already trying to decide between etrade, sirius and wamu right now, or fannie and freddie. GM is too low to make it worth while.

You need to be the world's optometrist

What? I know right that looks crazy as hell, so let me explain it to you. Many people have dreams, dreams to them that are crystal clear and amazing yet when you explain it to someone else they tell you it's all fuzzy and doesn't make sense, they can't see how it would work out. Here's the thing they aren't supposed to, if they could why would they need you to show it to them? Think about it, if ANYBODY could have come up with the collected works that are the Walt Disney films and cartoons, why would it be called Disney?

I mean there have been a bunch of rabbits out there as cartoon characters but if I say "Myaaaaah Whats up Doc?" I'm sure only a certain carrot eating cottontail comes to mind, hell I bet you only imagine him with one voice(even though like a lot of cartoon characters he has had a few variations that just like his looks were refined over time until they found the one we all loved). How about long distance communication, there is a pepsi commercial out that details a few of them, but not all we went from going ourselves, to sending other people, to sending birds, to sending people on horses, to sending people on boats, to people on trains, to people on trucks, planes, to morse code and telegraphs, then telephones, then e-mails, text messages, and instant messages. I can guarantee you each time the person who thought of this new way to communicate explained it to somebody they got that old scooby do look "Ruuh? ". It wasn't because it was a lousy idea or because it wasn't feasible it was because it was your dream, your thought, your addition to make our world better.

It isn't the person you are explaining it to's job to understand why your idea is great(and if they do be weary of them because yes people will send you off a cliff quickly), why your story needs to be told, why this will revolutionize ____. I mean with every passing year new people spring up to take the place of people who came before, who have new ideas that hopefully can help us reach new heights and we need those people. Because we each have things we are good at, they may not be the same things, they may not intersect in a way that will produce anything useful. Which is why progress is so hard, which is why some things take not only time, opportunity, and luck but also perseverance. You have to be willing to not only go to the drawing board a few times but to be told your a fool, to be told this will never work.

Because again if anybody could do it, then why would the world be waiting for you? How many stories did edward allen poe have to write before people realized that while creepy his stories were memorable? How about Mary Shelly do you think frankenstein was an easy sell? Da vinci do you think his flying machines weren't seen as the crazy dreams of an otherwise brilliant man? Part of bringing your dream to life is just that, doing that hard work, finding where the puzzle pieces fit, figuring out while this way may work alright, if I do it like this it is even better. Now when you get to a certain point then maybe more people will start to join in and realize hey this is kinda cool. I mean come on, you think nobody every stood around with a green sock on their hand, and yet Jim Henson put some googly eyes on his and the Muppets were born, it may not be easy being green, but I'll be damned if most of us don't have a favorite whether it be kermit, yoda, wembly, gonzo, animal, fozzy(or is it fozzie I never remember), the gelfflings, elmo, Ms. piggy man the list is so long it's really hilarious ain it. If anybody could have created Spiderman would anybody know who Stanley Lieber (bite me, so what if only Stanley Martin Lieber is linked, you have the internet google the rest) was.

You have a dream, your vision of that dream should be the clearest and you should happily bring that vision to the rest of the world so they can see it just like you do whether it's a tale of "long, long ago in a galaxy far far away" or "To boldly go where no man has gone before" until you put it out there none of us will ever know anything about it.

Definition: A lazy so and so

I'm gonna try to do this rant sans cursing will see how far I get before I have to cut and paste it into notepad and transfer it to multiply. I had a bad day yesterday, on my way to the bank I got into an accident I rear ended somebody, to make matters worse there was already backed up traffic on the highway so we really couldn't pull over I think we went like 3 miles before we were able to get to the shoulder talked to the state trooper, I got my ticket(I did rear end dude, it may have been a situational thing but I was the hitter not the hittee). Very little damage to his vehicle(I left a little paint), right front headlight bracket busted on the vehicle I was driving.

So like I said bad day, well today is a new day I had to go pick up a package from UPS and I noticed the house was out of trash bags, so I figured hey lets be a responsible adult there is a walmart right down the street from UPS I'll pick some up on my way back. Okay I get the package I mean was easy, The "it's a beautiful morning" song was starting to cue up in my head cause it looked like today was gonna be alright. So I stop at wally world find the trash bags, simple, get up to the self scan register no line, at a walmart no line, dude I should have known something was up but I swear that song was just playing away. Scan my item, click pay now slide in the one, kicked it back? Hmm okay let me try it again, kicked it back again okay let me try the 5 maybe it's full it full takes the five. Da hell? What did somebody slide me some counterfeit ones.

Side note, I have often said if one wanted to be an intelligent counterfeiter

That they would make fake 1's and 5's because by the time the feds figured

out that somebody how counterfeited them, that first bill would go from

Poughkipsie to Compton, because folks trade ones and fives back and forth

so often until someone actually thought to pen one of the bills it would have been

used as change 10 times over from store to gas station, to convenience store, restaurant

man think of how often you hand someone money and get a 5 and bunch of ones back

and then how quick you start passing those singles back out, how quick you hand somebody

5 for gas, or for a meal? I'd give the bill a week to make it to LA. And to make matters worse by the time you caught up will all the bills hopefully the intelligent person who did it would LEAVE THE DAMN COUNTRY. Look you gonna pull a job get non extradition money. Whats that enough money

to move to a country with no extradition treaty and live damn good. I'm talking live and not have to work

just lounge around laid back with a umbrellaed drink talking about some

"Lookin good Billy Ray" "Feeling good louis".

Okay back to the story now, so when I finally get it paid for(the girl behind the control desk for the you scan had to do it) the cashier explains to me yeah none of these machines take ones. I asked her why she said the repair guy had come in to work on it and said, and I quote "as long as it takes 5's,10's and 20's I don't care". For real your job is to fix things, you have an obvious problem. Your machine is not takin a denomination of money, so your basically gonna gum up the works because you hope everybody has large bills. I asked why they ain put a sign on the registers she said we ain allowed to put signs on them. I asked if they could put a "our service consultant is on crack thats why your self scan register will not take 1's" sign she laughed and I walked out the door. Fa real doh(yes I said it like that), how is your job gonna be to fix something and just because either it will take to long, or you just lazy you ain gonna do it. Aren't you paid to do it, Walmart gets a lot of customers I'm pretty sure these folks like the you scan feature because that way you ain gotta wait for a person to hand you out change and once you feed the machine all of the money OR swipe your card your golden.

But oh no, captain spanky feels that if you ain got plastic or you ain ballin with big bills in your pocket you don't need to be shopping at walmart. Man if Sam was alive he'd probably kick him in the tailbone and fire him on the spot(yes that was a close one was trying to figure out how to get that out with saying it). And I know walmart is paying good money for that sub par repairman right there because stuff like that is always a call out, and you know when you call for folks they are gonna bill you.  Lazy, I need his job I would have just fixed them all and called it a day. I don't care how long it takes my job is to keep things running smoothly I'm gonna do my job.

Okay rant over, lazy so and so see what I mean

Woohoo

My random tale has just reached a momentous feet, "over hear on lehi and lansdowne we den broke off our twinny twin twinn" yup my 20th blog here on blog spot and I am proud of me. And all of it according to the rules of this blog, now my last one was amongst it's usual random self and I am gonna start at least doing mini outlines in the future to cut some of the rambling down but I had an idea I did it, no cursing(I may have linked to some cursing, repacked some cursing into some new lingo but I myself did not curse, on that blog may have been thinking it but it didn't make it through to the post). So if you know me from some of my other blogs and you find me over here and you think well that is Primaldata's picture but this doesn't look like what Primaldata would write(freakin squiggly lines my name is one word, my name my persona been like that since 96 I digress) it's me. Yes this is more PG then you might be used to, but this is a challenge to myself can I still do this without cursing. If you catch me on multiply I will still curse, if I ever use myspace again I will curse, if I decide that windows live or yahoo profiles is something I want to get myself into they will be cuss zones left and write.

But sometimes it is nice to have a regimen, to do something that makes you work a little bit harder so that you can get better, sharper, handle things in a manner that is possibly not expected. Now with my penchant with forgetting how to spell words or even the word I am thinking of at the time cursing helps me get my point across a lot quicker then going about it the nice way. But I wanna get back into being able to slice you stem to stern and yet be perfectly acceptable in front of my parents I have gotten away from that. And I with my anal moody behind love options. I hate wasting time and with my current attitude sometimes I gotta let you pass because I wanna just quickly slice you in two with either a katana or broad sword comment. And depending on the setting they may not do, but if I can get the scalpel comments back into the rotation man, I can cuss you out and walk away smiling with you sitting there with that look. That did he just cuss me look.

Burning a little midnight oil here no real reason just wanted to get it done. It's a little sloppy and I need to personalize this blog more, I've been kinda lazy on that too it doesn't really match my personality at all.

So if you have found me and are wondering what is going on simple, I am restricting myself to language that could be heard on the disney channel or at least mostly the disney channel I wanna try to do a blog in the future discussing graphic acts yet not cursing at all. It should be fun, of course I want to outline in to keep myself in line(which honestly I hate staying in the lines, I sucked at it in kindergarten. I can't draw or cut a straight line even when I tear something it's a little crooked) If this is your first time meeting me Google primaldata if it comes up as one word it is PROBABLY me, I say probably there are a few non me usages of primaldata but this is me I have been using Primaldata as a digital alias for over 10 years now(wow 10 years) and would be willing to fight someone over the usage of my Nom de plume. It's significance was just a passing fancy it is the amalgam of two characters I was watching on TV at the time I first stepped out into this digital world. But it is me, most things that I sign up for on the web or on the internet I use Primaldata it's who I am. I mean yes my real name is Tommy(this is cyberspace pimp you don't need my whole government unless you need my whole government ya feel me) and if you ask you can find out my real name I'm not hiding. But as I said it is the name I chose when AOL asked what I wanted my screen name to be.(yes Primaldata goes all the way back to those "You got mail" Cd's that's how long I have used it) So if you are on this train I hope you are enjoying the ride if not thanks for stopping by sorry you don't like the decor, please be careful on your way out.

Managing you reality

Seeing a recent story in the news I realize something. As much as we all think living our dreams and making it is great seeing what happens to some of the folks who make it, I guess the nicest way I can put it is money doesn't breed happiness it breeds stress.  Huh Prime what the hell are you talking about. Okay I'm sure by now you have heard about Katt Williams arrest(hmm the CNN story has even more news about it so I'm gonna follow up on that in a later paragraph), and prior to his arrest Katt had been having some problems for which he checked himself into therapy. Now Katt is a comedian(oh you though I was gonna link you to death on his name nah, I might link you to a video later but this ain just about katt williams so bear with me), for most of us you would say man a comedian their life must be a chuckle a minute they must never have a single problem. To which I say, wait what have you never heard of richard prior (yes that is the google search page if you don't know who rich is take a day and get fully acquainted cause you seriously missed out)? As brilliant as Richard Pryor was, as many people list him as an inspiration(see also Red Foxx especially when it comes to handling your own money), Richard's addiction to cocaine almost ended his life (the famous 1980 free basing incident).

If I get off of comedians and say go to actors Heath ledger comes to mind, or River Phoenix , John Belushi (comedic actor yes but actor none the less) I loved every last one of these guys work. Each of them in their own special way brought characters to life that made you sit and watch and you appreciated it because they brought something special to you, and you never could forget it. If I wanna go to the living Winona Ryder

her issues with shop lifting for a while. It got me to thinking(I was gonna do more and I still might but now that I have to do the html long form I am gonna be a little lazy) I mean these people have the lives that most of us wish we had. They are entertainers, famous stars, they have the money, the cars, the fame, the clothes(some that they just walk the hell out with sorry winona I still love you), the houses what most of us would say man if I had that my life would be set.  And yet most of the people on this list went through issues that most of us struggle with day to day.

To clear up Katt's issue from the first paragraph if by what I am reading Cnn is saying it appears Katt found himself a 5 star hater. It appears Katt(whether because dude figures they about to make some dough together on a project currently filming, Katt's new Dvd Pimpadelic is out in stores by the way I need to pick it up myself) was staying there with permission but argued with an assistant, and the assistant decided to make a phone call to the police and have him arrested. That at least explains why he was smiling in his mug shot, you may have gotten him for the evening but you just lost your job(or got a brand new one that requires knee pads, some may find that little aside in poor taste but if a guy had done it I would say the same thing because pulling a stunt like that your either on the street or suckin something to keep ya job). Now yes we all run into folks who think they are the boss when the boss ain there, I don't care what job your are in or where you are there is always somebody trying to throw their weight around to make themself feel good. Just don't involve the cops in it because if it is found to be a fraudulent charge you'll be the one wearing bracelets next. But even so Katt has been said to be exhausted as of late(which was the cause of him checkin in for therapy) so for all that money he has he has a lot more responsibility and it appears a lot more stress(though I 'm sure he prefers that money and stress to being a regular 9-5 person like the rest of us watching him on TV, DVD, or the silver screen).

That has me thinking, as we come up with these dreams, and (hopefully) make moves towards them have we truly planned out what the first step after we have reach our initial mountain top is going to be? I mean honestly a lot of what I see when I see some of these stars and their issues is the fact that besides doing what they love they're kinda just like me and you. Okay I'm here now what, I got all this money like I have always dreamed of having let me live every last second like tomorrow it will be gone. Which if you think about it is kind of foolish. I mean if all of us only get 15 minutes of fame, why blow the spoils of that 15 minutes during it. Why not set ourselves up to while maybe not living like kings not having to ever get a more mundane job again shall we say. Think about all those one hit wonders, one album wonders out there you see them basking in the B40B's(look it up eminems second album Steve berman just in case you're lazy) living it up only to be back in the hood trying to find a way to get back in the lime light(no I refuse to stoop so low as to bring up a certain stage rushing incident). They had all this money flashed in front of their eyes and never thought hmmm maybe I should put this away somewhere so that when I'm no longer hot they aren't coming to repo my entire life.

And you've heard about it, you've seen some of the people it happened to 2 years ago there were living the life rims spinning, diamons shining, showing you they grill and now all the sudden they're trying to hide their posessions because either it wasn't fully paid off yet or else they on their way to the pawn shop so they can eat tonight. Which should never happen, money in hand is money in hand and it doesn't have to make you lose your mind. If you have a dream to become famous(rapper, singer, actor, athlete, Tv personality, comedian, DJ, Chef whatever) also make a plan for your life past the flashing lights. Because when those lights get turned off at the end of the day, and you are locked behind that door that is who is gonna have to be there for you if it all goes wrong. If people no longer find you entertaining(for a minute, folks disappear all the time only to resurface later john travolta anyone), if your jumper is broke, your knee blows out, your character isn't popular, they don't like your last song. The person who you really are is who is gonna have to figure out how to keep going from day to day. Hell even people who are hot for years can have money problems, so instead of spending it all early(first contract, first album, first season whatever I can kinda forgive if you wanna just blow some of that go ahead) put some of it away so that if your rainy day comes and it turns out to be a hurricane washing away what you thought you had, you aren't completely gone.

Not only that but have a back up plan along with your dream, so that if it stalls for a second you are still moving forward maybe you aren't running or flying but you're walking one step at a time. My dad told me a long time ago that if because everything isn't going perfect that you only focus on the negatives going on around you, you will miss an opportunity to enjoy some good occurrences. I almost called them minor, but they might not be minor, you may have had the time of your life and forgot about how good it felt to just be you. Ever notice that when you get a chance to let your hair down, loosen ya shirt buttons, kick off your shoes and just walk around being you how much better the world feels. When you aren't worried about your or anybody else's expectations it's just you and your surroundings for a minute enjoying just being. I'm not saying get stuck there but take a moment to enjoy the hard work that got you there, and if need be sit back assess where you are and get ready for the next leg of the journey.

Cause if you wake up tomorrow, whew you have another chance at a whole new adventure.