The remnants of this mornings carnage

You see those two containers, yeah it wasn't cute. Like most of my fellow northeasterners my taste buds are used to many different cuisines. And when you have a taste for something you have a taste for something
Today in my case it was sushi, I had to drop my mom her phone so I stopped by Lee's fresh sushi and deli to see what he had up. Yes Sharky's is just down the street, but Lee's is $5.99 for a basic premade container and I didn't have time to wait on sharky's for double that price THOUGH for a larger selection. I got a container of crawfish(crawfish doesn't really have that strong a flavor) and Shrimp tempura. Some who know me might be surprised, no BBQ eel, I know it was hard it was staring me right in the face but I wanted to try the crawfish. So I left my staple eel to its own designs. One never knows when they will find a new favorite so I gave it a shot, like I said I tasted everything else but the crawfish was too subtle. I like the way the eel has bite to it.

It made me think how much I would love to go to Japan and just chill for like a month and experience the culture. I have travelled many places in these united states but I have yet to cross a border. Not that I really had too many places I wanted to go, I mean being African American my "old country" is pretty much down here in the deep south where the trail gets murky.

There isn't really a "place of my ancestors" where I can definitively say yes I am standing in the land of my forefathers and am walking along trails they once did. Basically it starts with the ship and comes forward, hasn't stopped me from appreciating that which has come before me, just leaves my "wish I had gone" places list short of a completing the "circle" destination.

I mean I guess I could pic one of the coastal Sub Saharan areas and be like "motherland to my ancestors I am home" but its not the same as actually gong back.

Anyway(that tangeant wasn't preplanned I ramble and go with the thoughts take me sometimes) yeah Japan, Rome, Egypt, parts of england and maybe some parts of south america. I'm a sci fi/fantasy fanatic, a lot of those themes have played out in those areas. I'm sure the italians and the greeks are tired of us american tourists constantly visiting those grand marble monuments to a history long past.

Its great for tourism but I'm sure it clogs the street. But those testaments to human ingenuity in the past. Now no this will not go into the metaphysical. I do not care what you believe, how you believe or what came first. Those who came before found ways to build great structures that have lasted Millenia, let's go credit where credit is due and appreciate the fruits of determination.

Wouldn't mind seeing the highlands of Scotland or the plains of Ireland either. Maybe London, but FIRST it would be Japan. Okay work must be done let's stop the Rambley and get to it

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Life goes on

This is gonna be hilarious, writing one desktop and then flipping over her to write this one.

My wife asked me today what was wrong, there is a lot of things wrong just at the moment nothing I can do about them. My vacation plans are smashed which means no anniversary, birthday or new years with her. Extreme downer after experiencing them all again for the first time in years. To say I felt a little holiday magic was and understatement. We danced when the ball dropped(well the peach in GA), we kissed, we were in each others arms couldn't be beat. We went out to dinner together on our anniversary like we hadn't done in 3 years. If I had an 09 memory that topped all others it was the end of the year with my wife. It was a moment that for a while seem lost to the distant past, maybe I was kinda greedy last year and soaked up more than my fair share of holiday cheer and am payin back the deficit this year. If so I may be sour but I wouldn't trade christmas 09 in for anything, its what priceless moments are made of. So a few uncertain days and perpetual boredom may suck but it doesn't suck as much as last year was awesome.

I'm kind of run down, we've been running a lot of hours and miles at work so I wouldn't mind the downtime vacation would have offered. The money went to a good cause and while I have a few untapped outlets I said last year would be the last time I sold a good performer for quick cash(that being ford). So monetarily I can't afford to go on vacation anyway. I'll probably have to take a few days around christmas but it won't be the 3 weeks with my wife. That's hard to beat, don't care who ya are 3 weeks with the woman you love, sleepin in her arms every night, sharing simple moments unforced just living.

There are a few items, baubles, pittances I wanted but again things happen, money gets spent, plans get changed. You deal and you move on, I mean what am I supposed to do just sit still and wallow in self pity(I mean yes that is an option but its soooo 1985)? What's that gonna change, yes the days are running together and I could tell you the day and not the date, but so what? I'll get a break soon and when I do I will restart my brain in a manner that is more productive(look at my blog last month talk about therapeutic), so why wallow, why focus on one point in the present and stay there? What good will that do me, will it make my dreams come true? Will it make magic appear in front of me? No, then let's keep moving forward and get on to the next thing.

2 days til "the warrior's way", so I'm psyched about that, I was researching phones to see what my new one will be, I'm gonna do it I'm flushing the Curve and getting the new Bold. At first I wasn't liking parts of it, I mean the screen space is the same but its always looked blocky to me, but that 5 mega pixel camera screams awesome to me. Plus it has 3g capabilities, so better and faster surfing. I'll snap pix of it when I get it and post it on the blog. It also has that new "optical" pad instead of the scroll wheel, which you know I like my wheel but maybe that will be better, its not the torch(which I heard has bugs but the large screen PLUS the qwerty is drool worthy, mmmmm porn, what 0_o!? Like I'm the only one who'd watch porn on it, filthy hypocrits) but hey its better than this craptastic wonder I'm using now. I mean my original one with the bad "wheel" was love when I got it but this one has been nothing but a headache.

Aiight I got cleaning to do so I'm bedding this one running to the other one and I'll catch ya later

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In a somewhat pissed off mood

You have to love people, because they THINK they are right they run off at the mouth forgetting who got them where they are. They forget that if you look at the scale what they take is much heavier than what they give. People become so wrapped up in their righteous indignation of "why you have to listen to me" that they don't listen to themselves.

When you get to a point where you have challenged someone and it has reached a show and prove point, don't get mad show and prove. Its okay to feel strongly about something, no problem being passionate, but once you call someone out if they tell you to step up do so. And the funny thing is its always something minor, people go off on things that in the grand scheme aren't as important as the bridge they are tossung gasoline on. But hey "you know" right I mean you can blow up because in the end you got this and nobody can question you on having this.

Part of the problem is my fault I know, I give off this teddy bear like demeanor. I'm friendly, I'm cooperative, I'm consoling so that means when you run off at the mouth I'm just supposed to let it go. I mean hell I don't even have claws anyway right, and they filed my death down long ago. Except, if you look closely the claws are still there, the teeth razor sharp. The kindness and understanding I showed was not due to being castrated but due to being kind and understanding.

Sometimes I may agree with you, sometimes I may see that your side has merit, or is while imperfect definitely deserving of more than just immediate dismissal. Here's the thing, if I'm actually taking the time to listen it means that blowing me off loses for you an ally when you might need one in a coming situation. If I'm willing to spend my time in ways that helps you giving me the "what have you done for me lately" speech or the "well you only had to do this > < much" line will convince me that oh, you got it next time cool.
Because I do have better things to be doing then busting my hump for other people. This may not be the "me" of the 90's but even if in one spot I can find plenty to do. Things is, if you kept finding yourself asking me didn't that mean that your other outlets were slim to none. Doesn't that mean that you actually need me, hey I've rounded into a nice couch potato why should I move for you?

I mean I did it before because I thought it was appreciated now, nah son I'm good, you do you. That drink I've been missing downing it, Gotta go Gotta go, cya. See I've been grown a long time, I understand FULLY the world I live in. I've been to the rodea, the dance, the line, and the big stage. So I already know what I do and don't like, you're still trying to figure it out. But its cool you ain gotta ride with the side car, I'll step out and we can take it off. I thought you'd like the help but hit that sunset. You don't need me it might be time to start seeing what I need, and my needs are pretty simple, they just don't leave much time for your wants

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Hello.... Good Morning

And that's about all of that song that I know. Yes I'm still happy about the win last night Zebras and all we still won. I'm also proud of me for still kicking blogs out at a decent pace who knows how much longer it will last but for now I'm productive.

I'm not saying I've solved world hunger or anything but hey my accounting of the world is just another stitch in the tapestry. So enjoy in 20 years who knows where we'll be. I mean when I was 15 if you told me we'd have GPS, Camera phones, internet capable phones, ipods, pads, hand held portable TV's, dvd and blu-ray players, Interactive gaming wait let's stop my head would have popped back at the ipods(which I don't own I use my blackberry with a 8 gb mini sd card).

Hell 10 years ago DVD's just started popping and cd's were never gonna die. So my soon to be old foggeyish account of how things were before some of yall were born or before you learned how to read or write might help you kind of see the perspective of how fast or slow life hits its mark.

Grrrr I forgot to save the draft and my phone froze that's what the hell I get. Okay let's get my head back on, yeah what did I say:

Call of Duty:Black Ops comes out tomorrow I have my copy pre ordered so I just have to pretty much go down there with the rest of the dough and pick it up. To all my soon to be dead enemies, it ain personal it just black ops baby. I love when its new shooter day, puts a pep in my step and a smile on my face.

I still haven't fixed my Madden issue yet I may just have to flush this years rookie class I'm so mad but hey a $59 mil penalty is a 59 mil penalty. You got any hints on how to fix that Holla at ya boy, cause I would greatly appreciate that. I may do some game reviews in the future again to I've been lax of my reviews lately too.

I'm about to be in dead signal ville so I'll edit this bad boy when I hit the crib. Putting this to bed PrimalData
Til the next episode(old signature I used to use back in the day, yes I can be a little bit hammy so what life is more fun when ya havin fun)

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