Life goes on

This is gonna be hilarious, writing one desktop and then flipping over her to write this one.

My wife asked me today what was wrong, there is a lot of things wrong just at the moment nothing I can do about them. My vacation plans are smashed which means no anniversary, birthday or new years with her. Extreme downer after experiencing them all again for the first time in years. To say I felt a little holiday magic was and understatement. We danced when the ball dropped(well the peach in GA), we kissed, we were in each others arms couldn't be beat. We went out to dinner together on our anniversary like we hadn't done in 3 years. If I had an 09 memory that topped all others it was the end of the year with my wife. It was a moment that for a while seem lost to the distant past, maybe I was kinda greedy last year and soaked up more than my fair share of holiday cheer and am payin back the deficit this year. If so I may be sour but I wouldn't trade christmas 09 in for anything, its what priceless moments are made of. So a few uncertain days and perpetual boredom may suck but it doesn't suck as much as last year was awesome.

I'm kind of run down, we've been running a lot of hours and miles at work so I wouldn't mind the downtime vacation would have offered. The money went to a good cause and while I have a few untapped outlets I said last year would be the last time I sold a good performer for quick cash(that being ford). So monetarily I can't afford to go on vacation anyway. I'll probably have to take a few days around christmas but it won't be the 3 weeks with my wife. That's hard to beat, don't care who ya are 3 weeks with the woman you love, sleepin in her arms every night, sharing simple moments unforced just living.

There are a few items, baubles, pittances I wanted but again things happen, money gets spent, plans get changed. You deal and you move on, I mean what am I supposed to do just sit still and wallow in self pity(I mean yes that is an option but its soooo 1985)? What's that gonna change, yes the days are running together and I could tell you the day and not the date, but so what? I'll get a break soon and when I do I will restart my brain in a manner that is more productive(look at my blog last month talk about therapeutic), so why wallow, why focus on one point in the present and stay there? What good will that do me, will it make my dreams come true? Will it make magic appear in front of me? No, then let's keep moving forward and get on to the next thing.

2 days til "the warrior's way", so I'm psyched about that, I was researching phones to see what my new one will be, I'm gonna do it I'm flushing the Curve and getting the new Bold. At first I wasn't liking parts of it, I mean the screen space is the same but its always looked blocky to me, but that 5 mega pixel camera screams awesome to me. Plus it has 3g capabilities, so better and faster surfing. I'll snap pix of it when I get it and post it on the blog. It also has that new "optical" pad instead of the scroll wheel, which you know I like my wheel but maybe that will be better, its not the torch(which I heard has bugs but the large screen PLUS the qwerty is drool worthy, mmmmm porn, what 0_o!? Like I'm the only one who'd watch porn on it, filthy hypocrits) but hey its better than this craptastic wonder I'm using now. I mean my original one with the bad "wheel" was love when I got it but this one has been nothing but a headache.

Aiight I got cleaning to do so I'm bedding this one running to the other one and I'll catch ya later

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